14 hours

SO just passing my 14th hour of work today and bummed out cause i had to miss kung fu tonight. Since I've been back it seems my drive has been multiplied being in class seems to fix any bad day. Motivation is even higher after seeing the new Sifus get their belts. Congratulations to all of them.

so tired

This has been a long week (I mean the last 7 days i realize it is only Tuesday) trying to balance all my requirements is proving to be quite the challenge. Working on one goal means that a couple are slipping behind. Good news is that I got one of my photo shoots done today, but I'm so tired i think I just need sleep as is I lost a day somehow and didn't realize that yesterday was Monday and not Sunday as I had thought so good night

Letting Go

Today in class we worked on shoulder rolls which always is a fun class and a great way to feel like a little kid. Which leads me to my next point why is it kids can just jump for it and go not worrying that they may hurt themselves or that i might not work. Worst off it usually does work or they don't get hurt at least not as bad as they should. Everyone knows an adult jumping off a swing is most likely going to hurt themselves. Videos like this go viral on youtube almost everyday. Whats the difference?

"it's a lot easier to do something when you don't know it's impossible"

this is what I think is going on as soon as I think there is a small chance that what I am doing may hurt me i introduce doubt and fear which usually manifests itself into me hurting myself cause I psyched myself out if you may. It is this reason that I try and attempt everything with child's sense of fearlessness, which is not always easy. Part of growing up is learning that there are "limits" but if you learn to let go of at least some of your preconceived notions of what is possible who knows what you may be able to do

sick need sleep

This post is going to be short as I am sick and am on my way to bed. After one month I am falling behind it seems as a I try and catch up on one thing three more fall behind. The schedule I had made for myself when I thought up my goals turned out to be completely implausible. I find I never have enough hours in my day to get everything done that I need to.

On a positive note even though I'm sick I managed to start off February with some decent numbers as I rework my schedule into something more manageable.