where am I

This past two months have been really tough for me. My expectations of how things would work out where in retrospect unrealistic. I figured getting a job would be no problem I have a good resume a good portfolio how hard can it be. Then I figured once I get a job I can join up for classes again and things would carry on with hardly a beat skipped. I relearned something over the last two months. Accepting just being good is accepting a life of mediocrity. In my career field there is a lot of competition so being average means you don't stick out. With this in mind I have been creating new projects as well as finishing old projects that desperately need my attention. This time I am taking a more critical eye to my work.

I have also been thinking about my training or lack there of lately and it sucks to me. Kung Fu has been a constant in my life for the eight years give or take. Still knowing the positive effects it has on me I still make excuses to not train regularly if I am not in the kwoon. I tend to think of myself as alone all the way out here and that is not true I still can engage with team members through their blogs and through kwoon talk. I have actively made myself absent from the kwoon. The one thing I have been still doing is my push ups but even that is not enough. I have to re-establish my tracking system as well as revisit my forms which have been mostly gathering dust the past months. 

Craig Janzen

Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada